Big Day

Well today is the day we've been waiting for, SURGERY DAY. It's now 4:18 am and I can no longer sleep. Maybe by coming in and doing this blog will release some anxiety at least enough to get another half hour of sleep. I am most nervous about my timing of the surgeries. I want to be there for both of them when they may need me the most. Pre-op and recovery. I want to help ease any fears they may have prior to their procedure and be there when they wake up. I am just worried that Jeffrey will be waking up when Jacob is getting ready to go. I know that people are thinking that "Jason can be with one of them, they'll be OK" But I feel that I need to be there. It's really more for me.
Then my other fear is Jacob and the pain he may be in. I hope he will be able to cope with it OK. No excessive bleeding, and that he does well with the anesthesia.
I look forward mostly to seeing a change in Jacob's voice. I really hope this helps his clarity.
He has talked about his surgery quite a bit last night. He helped pack his bag and even thought he should bring his shaving equipment, just in case. Doesn't really seem to be scared... YET. We'll see how long that lasts.
Jeffrey has not a clue and that's fine with me. He will be an in and out 20 min maybe. They said that they don't plan on putting him totally out and no IV. I like that idea.
Pray for us today. (I know I need them)
I just need to give this day and my fears to GOD. He will see me through.