Big Day

Well today is the day we've been waiting for, SURGERY DAY. It's now 4:18 am and I can no longer sleep. Maybe by coming in and doing this blog will release some anxiety at least enough to get another half hour of sleep. I am most nervous about my timing of the surgeries. I want to be there for both of them when they may need me the most. Pre-op and recovery. I want to help ease any fears they may have prior to their procedure and be there when they wake up. I am just worried that Jeffrey will be waking up when Jacob is getting ready to go. I know that people are thinking that "Jason can be with one of them, they'll be OK" But I feel that I need to be there. It's really more for me.
Then my other fear is Jacob and the pain he may be in. I hope he will be able to cope with it OK. No excessive bleeding, and that he does well with the anesthesia.
I look forward mostly to seeing a change in Jacob's voice. I really hope this helps his clarity.
He has talked about his surgery quite a bit last night. He helped pack his bag and even thought he should bring his shaving equipment, just in case. Doesn't really seem to be scared... YET. We'll see how long that lasts.
Jeffrey has not a clue and that's fine with me. He will be an in and out 20 min maybe. They said that they don't plan on putting him totally out and no IV. I like that idea.
Pray for us today. (I know I need them)
I just need to give this day and my fears to GOD. He will see me through.

Happy Birthday Jacob!

Happy Birthday Jacob!
Jacob turned 5 years old on May 17th. Hard to believe I have been a mom now for 5 years. It seems like just yesterday my little man was born. He's now already telling me that "I'm almost 6 now mom". It's funny that these little guys have little concept of time. But really, where did the years go?
It seems like we are almost always saying "I can't wait for....." filling in the blank with walking, talking, going to school, or what ever you want them to be growing into. At the same time, it's sad to think we will never get those times back. One day, I will never get to have Jake run and jump into my arms. And then he'll want "privacy" when it's bath time (if he will even still take baths, now it might be showers only)! Sometimes I wish he could stay little forever.
By the way, Jake now has a brand new booster seat. He picked it out himself, and he couldn't be more proud.
Here's his new montage! (Don't forget to pause the music player to your right)


Jacob's 5

Ramblings of the week

So since I haven't been the most ideal blogger, making a new post daily, or even every third day, I will recap the last week or two as best as I can.

1. Both Jacob and Jeffrey are scheduled for the surgeries on May 30th. Jacob is having both his tonsils and adenoids removed. As you may recall these would be Jacob's "organoids". The little guy will be getting tubes put in his ears. Jeffrey is now at 7 for ear infections since December. More than half of those resulted in a ruptured eardrum. I am excited to have them both done and hope all will turn out great. I have seen a youtube clip where a little girl was having her adenoids and tonsils removed for the same reason as Jake(language clarity and questionable obstructive sleep apnea). Her parents took video of her speaking before and after her procedure. The difference was amazing. I hope Jacob will have similar results. As for Jeff, I hope the doctor's office will survive me not paying rent there anymore. Say a prayer for both my boys. I'm a little nervous.

2. Jacob has really done well in swimming this week. He is jumping in with no problem. I thought after his booty bump 2 weeks ago we were going to have issues. Lucky for us, he has moved on. Now he's even getting the back stroke down.

3. Jeffrey has decided that he's not quite fond of counting to ten. We get through 8 pretty well, but then when I say "9" he gets a very sad look on his face and tells me "no, no nite nite". No... N-I-N-E , with even more distress "No, no nite nite".. Whatever.

4. Jacob has reminded me that when he turns five that "I will need a new car seat. One that is for big boys, this baby seat is too tight on my penis." Oh the joy of raising boys. I have learned quite a lot about the male anatomy for this young boy(including from his drawing of God). Lesson learned, Five year olds need bigger seats.

5. Lastly, today while the boys and I were walking into Costco. Both boys were holding their breath. Really, they just had their cheeks full of air and breathing through their noses. Jeffrey of course just copying what ever Jake does. I asked Jake what he was doing. The response: "I am trying not to breathe, remember last time it was cold? I GOT SICK! I don't want to get sick again, so I am holding my breath. I don't want to breathe in the sickies"
ummmmmmmmmm OK. I guess all that talk about wearing his coat did sink in.

With Love....
SEF